Yes i still think about you
I still miss you
I still think about how we started.
our first hello, our random chat.
I still remember that day when I first laid my eyes on you
when we were exchanging smile from afar as we walk through the aisle and meet half way on that crowded place, unmindful, drifting excitingly
I think about our early greetings, unexpected but greatly anticipated phone calls and messages throughout the day, our late conversation, whispering our secrets from its shallow to its innermost and deepest thoughts, talking about our beaten past, sharing experiences from melodramatic to humorously, comically life events, mocking and teasing each other, our silliness and intimate talks, that comfortability, that boldness, bared and told
I still look at our pictures together and somehow it’s a visible proof that once,even just for awhile everything seems so right and perfect and real
And I can still remember our first kiss and it was clear and vivid..and it never failed to put a sweet ample smile on my lips..that night..at the corner of that street..along with those flashes of lights from the cars passing by…under that dimly street light pole.. when I look into your eyes and I felt that urge, that pull…that spark.. I was mesmerized..and all I wanted is to kiss you.. Once.. Twice.. And maybe more.. And at that moment I knew..
I remember those nights when you were lying next to me.. sleeping peacefully like a baby.. when I will suddenly find myself half awake in the middle of the night and I will stare at you and will gently stroke your hair, softly..I will smile for such.. And I will Feel happy.. Simply, effortless happy.
When you were sitting there at your desk or sitting in front of the TV and I’ll take a glimpse of you every once in awhile from a distance or even when I’m close but pretending that I am not looking..how my heart skips a beat..and it feels like Im drowning..
Because I always Love staring at you.. Looking at you..Being with you..
I still think about you and yes I still miss you.. I miss us..a lot..
sometimes I cry
sometimes I smile
But I know have to be okay.. I need to be okay.. I have to be okay for now or maybe always..
bristleconebreeze 